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This has been a pinnacle song for our family throughout the last couple months. It is so comforting in its simplicity and yet holds such gravity in centering us on the good nature of God and what He brings to the table when we trust in Him. The song became even more profound in our lives as we learned of Jeff’s brain tumor diagnosis in November. We would play this song numerous times in the car on our way to any appointment we had. And finally, on the night we spent with Jeff in the ER, when someone asked if I wanted some worship music playing, this is the song I chose. I queued it up on my phone and placed it on his chest to let it play as he lay there, breathing but otherwise completely unresponsive after the doctors had taken him off life support.

“Way maker, miracle worker, promise keeper, light in the darkness.

My God, that is who you are”

And so this song rang out in the darkest night, that our God is the way maker – that is who He is. When we keep our focus on who He is, the impossible, the detrimental, even the devastating is put into its proper place. The doctors have their reports, which are valid and helpful, but the report we trust in is from the One who reigns above it all. Great faith rose up in that hospital room – not out of what God would do, although we were believing for a miracle, but more so out of who God is. Because I know who He is, I know His heart for me and His voice. By the grace of knowing who He is, I was able to have faith and hope in the midst of great turmoil and uncertainty.  This song centers us on who He is, making it a personal declaration; “that is who You are, that is who You are”.

Many may not understand how we can have such great faith in something so intangible: how can you believe in a God you can’t see? But I have realized since this night, that there is no other option for me, but to have faith.  Without the hope of something good, what else are we left with? Faith is a gift from God for times such as these.  The Psalmist echoes this perfectly in Psalm 27:13 – 14; “I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.”

“You are here, moving in our midst, I worship You

You are here, working in this place, I worship You”

Since this night, we have continued to struggle with our understanding of the ‘why’ and ‘how long’ of this all. But I have identified that where there is confusion and uncertainty, that is where there is a hand reaching out to me from the Lord, drawing me in to seek Him and align myself with what He is doing. The simple verses help me with this by focusing my attention on the Holy Spirit, reminding me that He is at work, and inviting me in to what he is doing. It is when He is here, moving in our midst, working in this place and I worship Him, that I lay my agenda aside and posture myself to give him control over it all. It is here where we can simply allow ourselves to be, and quiet our thoughts, wait for Him, and let Him do what He wants to do. There is a bigger picture; there is so much more going on behind the scenes.

“Even when I don’t see it, You’re working,

even when I don’t feel it, Your working.”

We have had to trust so much in this truth. We have seen a great miracle take place, but we still don’t see the fullness of restoration yet. But this doesn’t mean that its not coming, it doesn’t mean that it isn’t done. What God has spoken is firmly established – especially when we don’t see it. Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed. But is it ever difficult at times. It is a discipline and a battle to keep your faith position; you can’t control how you feel. But how I feel is not how I am. I may feel anxious, hopeless or alone at times, but I am not a feeling. What I am is loved and cared for by the King, the one who prepares a table before me in the presence of my enemies. I am under His careful watch, He is fighting on my behalf and he never stops working. That is who He is. So this song continues to be on repeat in our home and I hope it brings encouragement to you in whatever season you are in.

"Way Maker" words and music by Osinachi Kalu Okoro Egbu.  Copyright 2016 Integrity Music Europe  (FYI - there are 2 popular performances of this song, one by Michael W. Smith and the other by Leeland)


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